It is almost insignificant.

I don't want to go any further without sharing this little tidbit.  I probably have written about this before, but maybe this time it will be a little more succinct.  I am about to show you how your whole life has been a lie.  Hold on tight.

In each and every second of your life your brain has been sending and receiving information with the universe.  Before you were even born your brain was recording.  As you read this right now your brain is processing about 11 million, let's call them bits, of information per second.  Every second that your brain is on and conscious it is completely aware of it surroundings.  It knows every last detail that the eyes, ears, skin, tongue, and all the other organs can detect.  The entire body is a sensor for the brain.  It all happens without you thinking about it.  Now think about this, really try to wrap your mind around what 11 million bits per second means and then realize your "thinking" is about 40 of them.

Take out a piece of paper and attempt to make the smallest possible dot you can using a pen or pencil.   No matter how small you make that dot, it will be too big.  For it to be accurate, it would need to be barely visible.  That dot; that is your thinking!  The rest of the paper is your total brain activity during any given second.  Now add that up in the totality of your life.  Your entire life you have "thought" that your "thinking" was YOU!  Your thinking isn’t even hardly a fraction of what is the total you.  All of your life your “thinking” has only been aware of a super tiny smidgen of what was really happening in that moment. 

Your thinking is not even a percentage of the total Self.  Well, that is until you get your thinking in line with what actually is occurring.  There is a reality occurring despite your opinion of it.  The idea is to learn to observe free of opinion; to observe without thinking. 

This is why all spiritual masters say to meditate and learn to turn off your thinking.  When you learn to listen to your unconscious mind it literally sets you free because it freaking knows almost everything.  There is very little to fear when you know everything!  When you stop thinking life changes.

Do not get me wrong.  It is not like one never thinks again or something.  It is just learning to put it where it belongs.  Learning that the thinking part of you is just that.  A part.  An extremely tiny part of the whole.  Your thinking is almost insignificant in comparison to the whole. 

My friend told me it’s hard.  Yes of course it is.  At first it is very hard.  If you are just attempting it you are combating an entire lifetime of it being one way.  One is having to un-train an entire life of habit and completely re-train it  another way.  Lots of things in life are hard at first.  Until one becomes good at changing, and puts in a lot of practice into it, change will seem difficult.  Anytime the body/mind has to be retrained consciously it is difficult at first, especially if the change involves a habit.   

Who just walks on a golf course and drives a ball straight?  Who just walks up to the free throw line and makes ten shots in a row first time in?  Who paints the perfect picture the first time they pick up the brush?  On and on I could go.  Nothing worth doing is easy; especially at first. 

Every single thought you have ever had was just a little tiny smidgen of whatever was really going on at that moment.  Moment to moment your thoughts aren't even really a fraction of the real life situation which is occurring at that moment. 

Here is that spiritual duality again.  We are nothing, yet we are everything.  This is why the spiritual masters say to look within.  If you can figure out how your own brain works you can tap into those other 11 million bits of information that it has been being stored away your entire life.  Think about that!  Being able to tap into the full power of your brain knowing it is processing that much information every second!  It can be done.  The funny part is, the irony, is that you will never be able to convey it verbally.  The actual occurrence of it anyways.  Life experience will become so complicated it cannot be expressed.  When thinking is put in its proper place life becomes other worldly, and it cannot be described fully.  That is why mystics sound so mystical.  At first….

Think of yourself now.  Here you were thinking your thinking was you.  Now imagine tapping into the rest of your brain; imagine tapping into the rest of your Self.  Can you contrast the difference between this fearful thinking part that most people have right this second versus another part that is never afraid because it is completely aware and basically knows everything?  This is why becoming aware is so important.  Can you see this contrast in the spiritual language of the mystics.  Peace is within!  Look within and you will find joy!  Look within and you will find god they say. 

Men are always attributing what they do not understand to some god or other.  They are always falling short of the real thing thus constantly misnaming phenomenon as god.  Go d is not within necessarily.  If there is a creator it is much more than that.  It has to be.  Look at the size of the universe!  Tapping into one’s unconscious mind would make a person seem like a god in comparison to billions of people who are not.  Think about that. 

When Cortez landed in what is now Mexico the natives thought him and his men were demons or gods.  They rode horses and had armor.  They killed thousands of them with just a small group of men they had to be gods.  They were not gods they just knew more about reality.  There are countless other examples of this in the history books where men thought other men who seemed somehow to have more powers than they, that they were gods.   I don’t think it is that difficult to see this phenomenon occurring even now.  All the time people who dedicate themselves to something get put on a pedestal as if they are better than the rest.  They are not better.  They simply opened up their brain and their body.  They did the thing.  It just happens to be a spiritual process for many so it often gets put into spiritual language. 

Wake up!

Why haven't you had enough yet?

In the following, the word good is used often.  This word, like love, means different things to different people, so I wish to be a little clearer about the meaning I intend.  I am using the word good in terms of being virtuous, a higher quality on an absolute scale.  On a scale of one to ten where five is normal, good is a six or seven.  Excellent would be a nine or ten. 

Removing culture from the mind is terribly difficult to do.  I am biased of course; this American culture is about as apathetic as a culture can be.  Stereo typical family design, public education, religion, TV, etc. etc.  For thousands of years now assholes have been in charge of the culture.  No one escapes the indoctrination of this culture.  It is so difficult removing all of the crap very few do it.  It not only requires a lot of questioning and reading, but it involves a lot of emotional work as well.  This is the part that scares most out of even trying to grow up.  That is why there are so very few actual mature adults walking around.  Whether you like hearing it or not that is what you are intended to do as a human, outgrow your culture.  Grow up.  Evolve your Self.  You are to realize that the way you were raised was fucked up, regardless of who you are.  It was sub-standard even if you had the best of parents.  Were they not indoctrinated too?  These older generations fell for the propaganda to such a degree it is scary how ignorant they are. 

Luckily for us we are in a different Age now, the energy of the universe is increasing in frequency.  If you don't get your shit together the universe is going to take care of it for you.  Look at all the madness going on.  If it is not obvious to you that everything is escalating then you are not paying attention at all.   What I mean by this is, you now have two choices; get your shit together or begin to really truly suffer for your ignorance.  Apathy is going to be scorned. The collective consciousness is exponentiating just like technology is. It is a law of evolution; it exponentiates.  The collective conscious is becoming aware of a huge problem and I don't think it is going to tolerate out right ignorance anymore.  At least I am praying this is true.  This is what I direct my mind towards, no more ignorance.   My well-being and the well-being of the earth depend on this. 

If people do not start sticking up for themselves, the bad people are going to take it even further.  They always do.  That is how it works.  One can easily see this historically as well as in our own individual lives.  It is just going to get worse until, like mature adults, a stop is put to it.  There is absolutely no reason to harm another, ever, for any reason.  In comparison to the total population, an extremely small amount of people are causing harm to the entire planet.  It does not matter who you are, one should not be allowed to hurt another, not rank, not office, not title, not nothing.  Especially not fucking profit.  Especially not a pay check. 

Harm no one, ever.  The question is why haven't you had enough yet?  Why are you still harming others?  Whether you have thought about this deeply or not is the concern.   Why are you not pissed off that your parents did not handle business?  Why are you not pissed off that the leaders in your community do not handle business?  One word: Apathy.  By definition apathy is; not taking any interest in anything, or not bothering to do anything.

I see too many people patting themselves on the back for doing something they should have been doing all along.  I will use eating as an example.  I know more than a few people who have begun to take better care of themselves.  Some of these people literally think they are better for eating well.  They are not better.  Once one begins to eat right they are simply normal.  They eat well compared to the normal.  That is the thing, in comparison to an extremely messed up culture eating right does seem good.  That is not good though, it only seems that way.  One should have been eating right their whole lives.  The question is; Why are you not pissed off that it is this way?  Why are you not pissed off you have been eating poison your whole life?  That would be normal.  It would be perfectly normal to be upset that your parents fed you poison your whole life without giving it any thought at all.  So to suddenly begin eating right is not a good thing; it should have been happening all along!

You see, doing this creates another lie.  It is going from one lie to another.  The first lie being it is okay to eat poison, the second lie being that one is good because they stopped.  Good is above normal.  Good would be helping others eat right.  Good would be going above what one should have been doing all along.  It is normal to stop eating poison that is expected. 

Life is perspective. 

Another one is the parent who thinks they are a good parent because they love their child.  That is not good, that is normal.  It is the base line.  It is absolutely absurd to think someone is a good person because they love their child.  Yet, almost every day I hear it implied.  The bar is not nearly high enough.  Your children should know how to read and write by age 5 at the latest.  They should know multiple languages by four.  By the time a child is out of "high school" they should technically be a genius compared to these typical Americans I see every day.  Good would be so far above what I see anyone doing it is nearly inexpressible because this culture is so jacked. 

I speak at length with many different types of people attempting to help them get their head right.  I find myself saying quite often to people, I don't know anyone with a legit father.  You see, at some point, everyone has to come to terms with the failings of their parents.   I don't know a single human being who had a father that actually handled business.  I am not saying they do not exist.  I am saying of the thousands and thousands of people I have known over the years I do not know a legit male over forty.  Not one.  That is good?

Good is the enemy of great, yet we don't even have good.  We can't get good because everyone calls less than normal good.  We don't even have normal.  That is how broken this culture is.  If you are comparing your own experience to this American culture; you are doomed to always be in a state of dysfunction.  As I like to say to my brother, if you compare yourself to this culture as a means to determine how good you are, you might as well go compete in the Special Olympics and then brag about how athletic you are.

Ouch!  Right?  That is harsh?  If you think that is harsh I would take that as an opportunity to grow up.  If the truth bothers you, you are immature for sure.  Most males I know between the ages of twenty and forty are four year olds in grown bodies.  Most of these boys were not raised correctly so they are still stuck at the emotional age of four. Women complain about this near constantly, but yet I do not see them doing any better.  While they may be emotionally more mature, they are equally immature regarding "male" things.  For instance, being able to do a pushup.  Male or female no human should be unable to do a push up.  How many women claim they would do this or that for their child yet can't even do a push up?  As if, when their child is truly in danger, they would be able to do anything about it when they can't even push their own body weight off the floor.  Laughable.  Nothing funnier to me than a woman attempting to act tough when she can't even do ten pushups.  Stupid girl doesn't even know what tough is, like her male counterpart she is comparing her strength to the strength of those in a broken culture.  It is not strong at all.  It is weak all the way around. 

Harsh?  Again?  If it bothers you, you probably needed to hear it.  You live in an apathetic culture.  That means you are apathetic whether you wish that to be true or not.   Growing up is a bitch in a broken culture.